It's like my entire body is a ghost limb. You know, when an arm or a foot is amputated but the amputee, they swear they can still feel it. It's like my entire existence is just the residual tingling, the phenomenon of feeling, when nothing is actually there. I feel so disconnected from everything in my life.
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braindeadscum
19 years old
Canada
Poor circulation.
i've been clobbered into the dirt
it seems, up to my knees
or maybe it's just that
i've been standing in one spot
for too long
and gravity's just doing it's thing
probably i, myself have sunk to this
but the fact remains
i'm still the same
and my legs, they beg
for any sort of movement
what i have, you might say
it's poor circulation
that's not what i'd call it
but it does the job
and what happens, you see
is the blood just pools
between my toes
where it clots, and grows
and i can feel it inching
up through my veins
up to my heart
and into my brain
it seems, up to my knees
or maybe it's just that
i've been standing in one spot
for too long
and gravity's just doing it's thing
probably i, myself have sunk to this
but the fact remains
i'm still the same
and my legs, they beg
for any sort of movement
what i have, you might say
it's poor circulation
that's not what i'd call it
but it does the job
and what happens, you see
is the blood just pools
between my toes
where it clots, and grows
and i can feel it inching
up through my veins
up to my heart
and into my brain
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Posted on Thursday, 24 January 2008 at 4:11 PM
NG
there's this guy
whose fingers fit right in mine
whose chest heaves and sighs
in rhythmic time
with my breath on his neck
and my ear to his heart
is listening for the beat
and hoping it's for me
as he whispers in my ear
everything i want to hear
from him and only him
he wants what i want
and i just want to know him
like no one else
i want to look into his eyes
and recognize
everything he is
and i hope that he sees it
when he looks in mine
because it's not me
but us that's perfect
and i think we both know it
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Posted on Sunday, 04 November 2007 at 10:22 PM
All you ever wanted.
i hope you find out
what it is you want
i already know what i am
and i know that we know nothing
and what have we learned?
but to wait for something better
what are we teaching eachother?
look me in the eyes
and tell me honestly
when's the last time you were happy?
tell me honestly
when you look at me
what do you see?
does it depend on the day?
because what i have to give you
is not what you need
it never has been
where i fall short
you've filled that space
with the face of another
because i'm too small to fill it
all on my own
but you can't have both
so we try to forget
and call it forgiving
but please don't forget
that i'm all you ever wanted
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what it is you want
i already know what i am
and i know that we know nothing
and what have we learned?
but to wait for something better
what are we teaching eachother?
look me in the eyes
and tell me honestly
when's the last time you were happy?
tell me honestly
when you look at me
what do you see?
does it depend on the day?
because what i have to give you
is not what you need
it never has been
where i fall short
you've filled that space
with the face of another
because i'm too small to fill it
all on my own
but you can't have both
so we try to forget
and call it forgiving
but please don't forget
that i'm all you ever wanted
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Posted on Tuesday, 30 October 2007 at 10:38 PM
Edited on Sunday, 04 November 2007 at 10:29 PM
Time is money.
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i'm only as important
as the time you have to spare
and it already feels like
you don't really care
------i guess i didn't expect it
------to last all that long
------but it felt nice
------to feel like
------your queen again
------------i suppose it's just that
------------you think you've got me back
------------and there's not much point anymore
------------fighting for what's already yours
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Posted on Monday, 29 October 2007 at 1:06 AM
Edited on Monday, 29 October 2007 at 1:21 AM